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no more nurslings

DW and I took the opportunity of my 3 day trip to Los Angeles last week to wean the Marshmallow. I have tried twice in the last 3 months to night wean to no avail. My hard-headed babe would go 10-12 nights with very little sleep, and very much wailing. I literally dropped with exhaustion at a certain point and gave in both times.

Since I was to be gone for 3 nights and 4 days, we thought this was a good time to just try going cold turkey. Here’s how it’s going:

  • Night 1: The MM was up from 12:30-4:30AM. Let’s all give it up for Mommy (DW) who had to deal with that mess. He was not crying or unhappy during that time, just awake. Fortunately my mom was on hand to help, so DW did get some nap time the next day.
  • Night 2: The MM was up for the day at 3:30AM. Poor, poor Mommy.
  • Night 3: The MM was up for the day at 5:30AM. A little progress…
  • Night 4: Mama was home! The MM was asking for milk! I very nearly gave in as I just ached for him, even though the crying was not inconsolable. I was able to get him to sleep with no nursing. He woke up several times wanting to nurse, but I was able to get him back down with very few tears. He was up from 3:30-4:30AM, woke for the day at 6:30.
  • Night 5: Baby slept through the night until 6:30AM! He stirred several times overnight but never woke up. YES!
  • Night 6: Baby woke up several times through the night, but I was able to get him back to sleep quickly with some butt patting and shushing.

Pretty good, right? He does ask for milk a couple of times each day, but accepts it when I tell him, “I’m sorry, there’s no more milk. Would you like water, juice, etc? Would you like a hug?”

It is both great and sad. The thought that I’ll never nurse my babies again does have my heart breaking a bit. I wish I could have one more nursing-to-sleep session, but I also know it’s time to be done. I was really resenting having to nurse so often, and not getting restful sleep as the MM woke several times overnight to nurse. I also feel kind of guilty not waiting for him to end things – even after 2 years and 8 months of bfing. That mom guilt is strong and merciless!

I nursed my babies for a total of 4 years and 11 months. Neither had a drop of formula and were EBF for their first 6 months of life. I pumped for a total of 1.5 years while working full-time. My initial goal was to reach a year with each baby, so I kind of killed that one! I am so proud and so thankful that I was able to experience nursing my children. It was a transformative experience for me, something I’ll treasure always.

Goodbye, my sweet babies. Hello, my beautiful children.


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13 months

Before I get to S’s update, I just wanted to thank you for your kind words on my work post. As it turns out, I managed to get a plan in place and got us where we need to be by end-of-day Friday (with a lot of help from my awesome co-workers). Now my crazy boss is treating me like a hero – I saved the day! Whiplash. Well, now I know what needs to happen and I’m going to get off my butt and stop slacking. (I may also need to talk to someone about upping my AD meds.)

S turned 13 months on 1/21! His biggest advancements are in language: he understands (and is trying to say) several words. He knows book, ball, truck, wheel, kitty, milk, and “Is Your Mama a Llama?” I ask, “Where is the ball?” He crawls to one, holds it up, and says, “Ba!” (Does that count as his first word? I know he isn’t totally saying ball, but he knows what it is and is making the attempt.) I know he understands “Is Your Mama a Llama” because out of the blue, I looked at him and said, “Is your Mama a Llama?” He crawled over to the coffee table, where there were a few books, and picked up the Llama one! What a genius! 🙂

He is not yet walking, but I think it’s more that he hasn’t quite figured out he could. He finger-walks and cruises like a champ and is very sturdy on his feet. It’s going to happen any day now.

Baby is teething like a madman right now. He doesn’t let us get a good look, but I’ve seen at least two coming in on top, and 3 coming in on the bottom (molars, too). We are doing a lot of Motrin these days, poor baby.

Sleep continues to be a challenge. It is usually not a problem to get him to sleep (nurse, bounce him around while singing, put in crib – generally takes about 10-15 minutes). It’s that he wakes fairly frequently throughout the night to nurse, and he is up EARLY. The other day he was up for the day at 3:30AM. OMG. I’m really hoping that once his teeth are in and he can walk, his sleep will improve. (BTW, we move him to our bed for the night on his first wake up once we are in bed.)

The sleep thing is so so so hard. I know my extreme lack of sleep is the main culprit behind my inability to focus at work and my need for meds. It is also a major factor in our discussions on having another baby. We’re thinking that if we decide we want another, we would try this summer (assuming my period is back – still nursing, no period now). The thought of two babies with sleep issues to deal with is enough to make me say HELL NO, but I don’t want to look back and regret it. I know that the baby stage is over so quickly in the scheme of things.

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birthday bits

In other news, we are busily planning baby’s Winter Onederland party. We have switched the colors from blue/silver/white to red/silver/white as it will match our house better (hahahaha). We’ve also ditched the chili plan (could be too messy) and are instead getting a platter of sandwiches, fruit, and various nibbles. Still doing the hot cocoa thing and also cider. It’s gonna be a full house – we have around 25 adults and 7 kids coming. Our place is not that big! The guest list just kept expanding. Hopefully it won’t be too crowded in here…

S is teething like crazy right now. Several molars seem to be coming in and he is hurting, poor guy. Sleep has gotten a bit nuts again – it had gotten a little better (5:15-5:45AM wake time instead of the old 4AM), but the last few days have been back to 4AM. Argh. Those teeth need to just come on in already!

I’m gearing up to stop daytime nursing (sob) when he turns 1. I plan to continue nursing at bedtime and morning, but I’m just over pumping. Here’s hoping he takes to regular milk. On that note, anyone know how to make the transition? Do you combine breastmilk with cow’s milk for a bit or just go cold turkey to cow’s milk? We’re also not having much luck with the sippy cup. Need to get that going.


Filed under 11 months, birthday, nursing, sleep, teething

normal or whack?

Weigh in, peeps!

  • I have been nursing for 10.5 months now and have yet to get my period. Just curious how other bfing mamas compare.
  • S is 10 months old and we have never left him with a sitter.

I’ll add more items as they occur to me as I’m sure I have many.

ION, we have a play date set up on Saturday with the Mamas we met at Gymboree a few weeks back. So looking forward to it! We need some new Mama friends as much as S needs some friends with 2 Mamas (try saying that five times really fast)!

While I am not currently participating, can I just say how much I’m loving NaBloPoMo? New content all the time! Love! I’ll try go post more often this month, too, so I’m not too much of a hypocrite 🙂 On that note, feel free to ask me any nagging questions you might have to give me something to blog about.


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I think I’m sliding down the slippery slope of depression. Work is just awful right now and combined with the not sleeping and the worry of getting laid off at any moment, I’m feeling pretty low. I finally had a crying fit earlier today, which did nothing but maybe take a bit of the steam out of my upset for a brief moment. Now instead of fury I’m just feeling beaten down. I’ve been off the antidepressants and doing well without them since before getting pregnant with S, but wondering if I need to get back on. Since I’m still breastfeeding, I wonder if that means switching to a different one, which may have its own set issues as the one I was on worked just fine.

I feel like an ass even complaining when I have my perfect wonderful baby and a job that pays well enough for DW to be a SAHM and offers me a flexible schedule (hell, or even a job at all in this economy), but what can I say? My job is just sucking the life out of me.


Filed under antidepressants, nursing

eating and sleeping (is there anything else?)

S had his 6 month check up on Friday. He is now 19 lbs, 27 1/4″. Big boy 🙂 His Mamas joined in the vaccination fun! We had to get tetanus shots due to the Whooping Cough epidemic in California. Who knew?

Solids report: He has had rice cereal (loves it), banana (hated it), avocado (was unsure), and applesauce (again, unsure). The applesauce may have been a temperature issue (was in fridge), so we’re going to try again at room temp and see what he thinks. I also made my first round of baby food last night! Peaches and sweet potato. It was really easy (and tasty, too)! I’m thinking we’ll try the sweet potato next – I can’t imagine that he won’t like that! It’s sufficiently bland with enough sweetness that it should do the trick. I also picked up some oatmeal since he really likes his other cereal.

He cracks me up when trying new food. He kicks his feet like crazy while eating his cereal and is just anxious for the next bite. When you give him something new, however, the feet kicking stops and he gets a grimace on his face. Sometimes he sticks his tongue out with the offending bite on it. Other times he kind of fake gags. It’s funny as hell. Lord, don’t let me end up with a picky eater! I was never a picky eater as a child, but my brother was ridiculous. Kid didn’t even like pizza! Hopefully it’s too early to call that one.

I think I’m going to need to add a nightly pumping session. ICK! I have been producing enough at work to get two 5 oz. bottles but now that we are doing solids, I need more on hand to mix with cereal, etc. I HATE pumping, but it must be done. We (finally) bought a bottle warmer last week and it seems to have really helped baby take the bottle more easily. I feel like an idiot for not having done it sooner! He now holds the bottle mostly on his own and takes most, if not all, of it. Let’s hope this is a continuing trend.

I feel like most of my entries lately have been so negative due to the sleep thing, but hopefully that is about to change. We are going to start doing the Sleep Lady technique of sleep training on Wednesday or Thursday night. It seems like a humane way of sleep training (not leaving him to CIO). If he were able to sleep nicely in bed with us, I’d be happy to co-sleep, but he tosses and turns and wants to nurse all night, leaving both of us tired in the AM. Anyway, I really hope he responds well to the gentle method. We are going to bite the bullet and make the office into S’s room (slowly at first, but eventually it will be all his). Moving his crib at some point this week. While I’m ready for us to start sleeping again, it is also sad to think of him out of our room and even in some ways, out of our bed. The nights always start off so nice, with baby snuggled up next to me sleeping like a little angel. I will miss that.


Filed under 6 months, eating, nursing, sleep

pumping questions

I’ve been keeping a list of questions in regards to pumping…

  • Is it okay to freeze milk that you pump at work (i.e. has been refrigerated for most of the day)?

  • Do you thoroughly clean the breast shield thingies after you pump every time? I have been rinsing them after each session and then cleaning them when I get home.

  • What do you transport the breast shield thingies in? I have to get them from the Mother’s Room to the kitchen to rinse and then back to my desk, so I don’t want to just carry them, if you know what I mean. I find that milk and then water gets in whatever bag I use and would like something better.

  • I’ve been pumping until I get enough for one bottle (I do two pumping sessions and get about 10 oz. total – baby is taking 8 oz. for now, but I think he’ll go for more once he takes to the bottle better). It takes me approximately 10 minutes to get 5 oz. Should I be going the full 15-20 minutes or is it okay to just go until I have what I need for the next day? Note: I’m comfortable with my freezer stash and don’t really have room for a lot more. I just don’t want to do anything that will screw with my supply long-term.


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