>My right butt cheek is killing me today. It’s weird considering it was the left cheek that suffered through 2 injections on Sunday night. I sometimes wonder if those muscles will ever heal. When we stopped the PIO after the m/c, my butt never felt “back to normal” and it had 3-4 weeks of no shots!
On the topic of “ouch,” thought I’d also share that we call my stomach the Frankenbubba. It has a large myomectomy scar, two smaller lapo scars, and a bellybutton lapo scar. It also had 2 bruises post-lapo that are now gone, but they were there when Frankenbubba was introduced. I’d take a picture, but the myomectomy scar is so low, it would be slightly obscene.
I guess one positive I can take from all this is that I’m no longer afraid of needles or surgery. I’ve been through so much of both over the last few months that the thought tires me, but it doesn’t scare me. I can also not say that I’m a big baby, which I thought I was pre-TTC. Maybe this was all to toughen me up for motherhood. Yeah, that’s it…
>I took the bandaids off my 3 laparoscopy cuts this afternoon. The two near the ovaries are tiny and look fine. The big one in my bellybutton is nasty and sore. My stomach is really swollen and there are a couple of bruises near my bellybutton. Ew. Has anyone had this before and if so, how long did it take for the swelling to go down? I think I’m going to be in sweats again like after my myomectomy. Great.
I’m also still really sick. If I’m not any better in the morning, I’m going to see the doctor to see what the hell is going on. I started getting a cold on Tuesday and it’s gotten worse and worse. I’m feeling pretty pathetic and gross these days. I was really ready to get back to work tomorrow (back into my routine), but I’m not sure it’s going to happen.
Mentally, I’ve done okay. Had a couple of crying jags, but recovered myself fairly quickly. I think I was somewhat prepared to lose the pregnancy before even becoming pregnant due to the numbers of people I’ve seen it happen to. I have also seen the majority of those women go on to have successful pregnancies, so I’m trying to focus on that.
Thanks again for all of your kind words.
Thank you all so much for your support and well-wishes. It is amazing to get this amount of caring from virtual strangers; makes me think better about the world in general. Thank you.
It ended up not being an ectopic pregnancy, just a plain miscarriage. My RE was worried it was an ectopic because he saw what appeared to be 2 sacs outside of the uterus. He did the D&C and there was tissue, but he wanted to ensure that there was nothing in my tubes so he did a laparoscopy as well. He found lots of scar tissue (from my myomectomy in Dec.) so he cleared that out and found nothing in the tubes.
It is both better and worse news in my opinion. Better in that I thought I had 2 healthy, growing embryos that just landed in the wrong spot, which just felt terrible to me. I also was concerned because having a tubal pregnancy after IVF is so uncommon. What if it happened again? Worse in that now I have concerns about my other embryos in light of one or both of these “excellent, 8-celled embryos” having issues. I’m trying to stay positive as my RE said he doesn’t see any reason we won’t have a normal pregnancy next time. I have 8 more excellent embryos and I’m healthy.
Now I just try to move forward. I have an appointment in a week to have a blood draw to see where my numbers are. RE seems to think we can start an FET cycle in about two weeks. As painful as things are now, I do think I want to just go to the next try as quickly as possible.