I think I’m sliding down the slippery slope of depression. Work is just awful right now and combined with the not sleeping and the worry of getting laid off at any moment, I’m feeling pretty low. I finally had a crying fit earlier today, which did nothing but maybe take a bit of the steam out of my upset for a brief moment. Now instead of fury I’m just feeling beaten down. I’ve been off the antidepressants and doing well without them since before getting pregnant with S, but wondering if I need to get back on. Since I’m still breastfeeding, I wonder if that means switching to a different one, which may have its own set issues as the one I was on worked just fine.
I feel like an ass even complaining when I have my perfect wonderful baby and a job that pays well enough for DW to be a SAHM and offers me a flexible schedule (hell, or even a job at all in this economy), but what can I say? My job is just sucking the life out of me.